88/100
Planning to feel everything, too much.
Planning to cobble together as quiet a life as can be found.
Planning for someone to write a story that knocks the breathe from my chest.
Planning for my eyes to hurt.
Planning to hold multiple truths.
86/100
Planning to spend money I don't have on a sleep study, because my insurance refuses to cover it.
Planning for a medication I need to be out of stock, again.
Planning to sleep all day to recover from a flare up.
Planning to keep on dancing (keep on dancing).
Planning for the librarians to turn Trumps' interm Librarian of Congress (a lawyer with no library experience) away.
80/100
Planning to change my sheets.
Planning to scrub the kitchen counters.
Planning for my dog to throw up & anxiously watch her all night in case it's serious.
Planning to throw out expired food on the eve of supply shortages.
Planning to keep myself afloat, barely.
79/100
Planning to still be here, despite it all.
Planning to hoard non-perishables.
Planning for public television & radio to be defunded.
Planning for Canada to vote anti-Trump.
Planning for drones to witness Venezuelans being detained in Texas to spelling S.O.S. with their bodies.
78/100
Planning to keep adapting.
Planning to lose my capacity for empathy.
Planning to petrify, and be found in millenia by whatever comes next.
Planning to choke on arsenic in the air.
Planning to cry tears made of concrete.
77/100
Planning for judges to be arrested.
Planning to keep making art that no one sees.
Planning to keep writing these words no one will read.
Planning for the algorithm to keep the revolution at bay.
Planning to remind you that we are the ones who do something we are the ones who will save us.
76/100
Planning for the shelves to be empty in two weeks.
Planning to buy more lentils.
Planning for Trump threatening to use the National Guard against states that don't comply.
Planning to keep looking at the photographs because they make me uncomfortable.
Planning to never be comfortable again.
75/100
Planning on not feeling human.
Planning to be a Magic Robot.
Planning to remember my heart.
Planning to weather the horrors.
Planning to avoid Tumblr so the movie doesn't get spoiled.
74/100
Planning to eat the rich.
Planning to always side with the oppressed.
Planning for AmeriCore to be dismantled.
Planning to teach people about security culture.
Planning to go. through. motions.
73/100
Planning not to do it for me, but for the people who come after.
Planning to embody Pizza Rat.
Planning to be in my clown era.
Planning not to portray a happy clown when, inside, I'm a sad clown.
Planning for the rich to keep forcing the circus on us, when we no longer have bread.
72/100
Planning to plant seeds whenever & wherever possible.
Planning to walk away from bad faith discussions.
Planning to verify any information before sharing or acting.
Planning to always push people farther left.
Planning not to give into despair.
Dear Friends,
How to enjoy art, lesson 1.
71/100
Planning to add more patches to my jacket.
Planning not to promise my time, when it's already so limited.
Planning for a two-year old girl to be deported.
Planning to talk with my neighbors about organizing strategy.
Planning to meet people where they are.
70/100
Planning for a persistent dry cough
Planning for my face to leak, persistently
Planning to be unable to regulate my body temperature
Planning to visit four bookstores on Independent Bookstore Day
Planning to get Roxane Gay's The Portable Feminist Reader
69/100
Planning to Protect the Dolls.
Planning for increasingly complex nightmares.
Planning for my insurance to not cover a sleep study.
Planning for a drought in April.
Planning not to fall into toxic patterns, again.
68/100
Planning for an autism registry.
Planning not to let my empathy be mistaken for weakness.
Planning for my dog to be afraid of fire.
Planning to sleep all day to fight off a virus.
Planning for my fever to break.
66/100
Planning to get a PMDD diagnosis.
Planning on some of my medications interfering with each other.
Planning to take my dog everywhere.
Planning to get her a giant cup of whip cream from the local coffee shop.
Planning to never have enough usable time.
65/100
64/100
Planning to grey rock.
Planning for all the liquid in my body to leak out of my face.
Planning to douse myself with every allergy medication within reach.
Planning to realize my comfort character is the Protector I never had.
Planning to probably lose my insurance.
63/100
Planning to cut the threads that bind me.
Planning to do my best, until I can't.
Planning to vocal stim instead of scream.
Planning on rampant misinformation because everyone is too panicked to verify.
Planning to live through a dark chapter. And another.
62/100
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61/100
Planning for the UK to police womanhood.
Planning to feel, oh, so alone.
Planning to celebrate my dog's Gotcha Day.
Planning to help my friends unpack their new kitchen.
Planning to cry because Kilmar Abrego Garcia is alive
60/100
Planning to rehearse telling ICE to fuck off.
Planning to become re-obsessed with Butoh.
Planning to say Kilmar Abrego Garcia's name.
Planning to say Mohsen Mahdawi's name.
Planning to say Rumeysa Ozturk's name.
59/100
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58/100
Planning to sleep on my friends' couch.
Planning for an exhaustion so deep it hurts.
Planning for people to quibble about tactics instead of taking action.
Planning to struggle with my art.
Planning for dissenters to be sent to El Salvador.
57/100
Planning to paint my friend's house into a rainbow.
Planning for my kitchen sink to leak.
Planning to realize that all I ever really wanted was a little tenderness.
Planning to see DEATH OF A UNICORN in theaters.
Planning for my heart to race a concerning amount.
56/100
Planning to rest, goddammit.
Planning to step back when I need to.
Planning on AI to write the tarrif plan that takes down Capitalism.
Planning on financial abuse.
Planning to buy blackberries on sale for perhaps the last time.
55/100
Planning to watch the world panic.
Planning for the economy to implode.
Planning to wash too many glass jars.
Planning for my joy to be valid.
Planning on pursuing ridiculous dreams.
53/100
Planning to not get dragged into crises.
Planning on making art every day for the dopamine hit.
Planning on seeing improvements in my art because I work on it every day.
Planning to do five loads of laundry.
Planning on the biggest trans flag in the world being walked through my city.
51/100
Planning to ignore the unjust laws of an unjust system.
Planning to filibuster like a motherfucker.
Planning to dump out, not dump in.
Planning to fall back into the familiar.
Planning to allow myself to be an expert.
50/100
Planning to pretend everything is fine, for just a little while.
Planning to let the guilt of surviving overwhelm me.
Planning on adapt, adapt, adapt, because there is no other choice.
Planning to watch due process disappear.
Planning on detention centers withholding food & water.
49/100
Planning not to be expendable.
Planning to contain multitudes.
Planning to haunt those who fucked around.
Planning to be the ghost story origin.
Planning to be compassionate & soft, while maintaining boundaries.
48/100
Planning to keep opening my big fucking mouth.
Planning to try until I can't.
Planning to serve cunt.
Planning to be full of vengeance.
Planning not to reason with those at the top, for they are unreasonable.
47/100
Planning to take my dog to the groomers.
Planning for miscarriages to be criminalized.
Planning to buy a few more Cadbury Eggs.
Planning to be relatively chill--just not on the outside, or the inside.
Planning for history to be burned.
46/100
Planning for my teeth to rot inside my skull.
Planning to look for hope after the fall.
Planning on intensified voter suppression.
Planning to start a Slack channel to share all my secrets.
Planning not to rawdog my ongoing mental health crisis.
45/100
44/100
Planning on a food bank drought.
Planning to wash my hair, eventually.
Planning on people making outrageous excuses for evil actions.
Planning to look into volunteering as a peer support specialist.
Planning to finish my degree, but unsure if it will mean anything, anywhere.
42/100
Planning to refill my meds.
Planning to read a book that punches me in my soft, hidden, trauma-riddled places.
Planning to never have children.
Planning to fight so the children have a future left at all.
Planning for public education to be gutted.